Thursday, September 24, 2009

Integration

I'm going to stop posting on this blog.

(I'll give you a moment to regain your breath. I hope you were sitting down when you read that!)

I took up residence here when I needed an outlet to talk about our struggles with secondary infertility. During the active stages of TTC, there's a lot to discuss. The daily mechanics of the treatments and the rollercoaster of emotions that accompanies them.

And at least for me, being pregnant and parenting after infertility does not completely silence the aches and pains of what we went through. Is life easier? Yes. Do I think about infertility every day? Hell yes.

Because I wouldn't be pregnant with twins right now if I didn't have trouble conceiving.

And I think about that. Constantly. Among the other ways I have been changed (for better and for worse) by my IF experience.

However.

In my first post, I talk about how this blog is a way to compartmentalize my infertility. Instead of allowing it to seep into every relationship, every thought, and every thing like I did the first time around -- I wanted to get it all out here and leave the joyful areas of my life alone. And I was able to do that with a fair amount of success, which was in no small part thanks to the fact that our journey to #2 and #3 has (so far) been incredibly less horrible than #1.

But I think it's time. For integration.

I will still be writing about parenting after infertility, because it is part of who I am just as much as my tendency to get bruises from bumping into furniture or my weakness for things that have glitter on them.

But I'm going to do it among other topics on my other blog, Sunny in Seattle.

I am probably jinxing myself in a huge cosmic way, not even being out of the first trimester yet. If (God forbid) something bad happens to this pregnancy, maybe I will revive this blog. But I'm doing my best to think positively, to focus on recovery instead of dwelling.

I hope you follow me to my other digs. But I understand if you don't, if that's not where you are right now. It feels rather counter-intuitive to close this blog, which gets more hits than my other one. However I can't manufacture more infertility posts than are truly in my heart, and although I still have much to express, it's not enough to support an entire blog at this point.

Thank you for reading. Thank you for commenting. Thank you for praying, wishing, supporting. Whatever you are striving for in your own life right now, I hope you find your great reward.

And as my Dad would say, I'll see you on the flip side.

15 comments:

  1. Aww I don't blame you. For me, I'm going to keep blogging on the IF blog until I am holding my healthy happy baby in my arms. Until then for me, I'm still in the throes and so my story will continue there, but I will certainly follow you to your new (old) digs!

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  2. See you on the flip side and it is always Sunny in Seattle!

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  3. I totally understand and you know I will be at the other one. See you there!

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  4. Ahhh I'm so jealous you've reached this point in your life. Thanks for all your replies to my posts, you're incredibly helpful. :)
    Good luck with the twins!

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  5. Following you over...

    I'm all for integration -- yay, you!

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  6. Yay! What a happy, happy thing to do!

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  7. Okay, would you stare at me, if I told you that this was likely to happen? I actually thought that you would have a very tough time minting out posts on the same topic with different flavours on two blogs, and I am glad that the integration is happening sooner than later.

    Of course, I will be there on the other blog too!

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  8. This makes sense. I honestly don't know how you find time at home to maintain one blog, much less two. I will see you on the flip side.

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  9. I'll follow you chica, heck I already do. I consider these switches not an abandonment, but a graduation. I think it's smart and you know what? Some day I want to blog about things that aren't infertility too. ;-)

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  10. Makes complete sense to me. You are in a different place then when you started your blog. Looking forward to the flip side. On a side note...just had an ultrasound and one mature egg, some injection in my toosh, and now we get to business tomorrow afternoon! Who knew!

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  11. Yay! Catch you over at Sunny in Seattle.

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  12. Ok, thanks for the reminder to add your other blog to my reader. :) Congrats on making it to the other side.

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  13. You've been such a HUGE help to me. You know it, I know it.

    Thanks for that.

    Maybe one day I'll join you in your success.

    I hope.

    Oh, how I hope.

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  14. Congrats on the continued health of 2 babies!

    My DH's bday is April 16th, so I'll be sure to remember your duedate now. :)

    Romoving this blog from my blogroll and adding Sunny to my list. Can't wait to catch up with you there! :)

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  15. Of course I'll follow you! Oddly enough, I arranged a similar blog-move myself (but had to create a new one for me)...but now that I'm having complications, I just can't seem to budge. Yes, the jinx is controlling me. I think this is exciting!!!!!! And yes, pregnancy is GREAT...but does come with its fair share of aches and pains!

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